exorbitantly euphoric

Long long time ago...

2010-08-16T22:30:00.000-07:00

It has been ages since I last updated my blog. Sometimes, I don't see the reason why I need to.

Being in the final year has taken much of my time, and I have been pretty busy with classes, PD and FYP. My PD seems to be hanging by the noose though.

Spending Ramadhan at home, and I have been quite productive. Painted the living and dining room with my niece, and I LOVE the colour. I'm not done though, there are plenty of things I want to do to my humble home.

Dedi has been in the sea for 3 weeks already, and he has not got any chance to land yet. His absence and the distance do make our love stronger, InsyaAllah for the rest of our lives. Oh, the trip to Pekanbaru with the in-laws was fun. What else could you ask for, than spending quality time with family. And of course, I had memorable times with my beloved.

It has been a week of Ramadhan, but I can feel the rush hour towards Syawal. Good things always ends fast. I hope that Ramadhan this year is well-spent, and let's all hope we gain barakah and ni'mat of this holy month.

Colour Me

2010-05-01T01:03:00.000-07:00

I'm like a "Chips More' biscuit. 'Kadang-kadang ada, kadang-kadang tak ada' (sometimes here, sometimes not).

Busy is not a new thing. But there are several issues that has contributed to my busy life. Mom fell terribly sick a few days before the new semester started. And that was the most frightening moments in my life. Trust me, THE MOST EVER.

Alhamdullilah, she's fine now, and hope she gets better. Meanwhile, I'm staying over at my sis's place with my parents, until Mom gets healthier.

School has been good so far, and FYP is due in... 40 days? Better get started ya. I really hope I excel this year. Perseverance and faith, that's all I need.

Jaan has went back to Indonesia, for 2 weeks. I miss you. In-laws are coming next week for 'meet-the-parent session'. Discussions and more discussions.

Oh, I want to apologize to FRIENDS, whom I have not lepak-ed with for a very long time. I just need to spend time with my mom. And not to mention how her responsibilities in the house falls into my hands now. Just so you know, I don't even spend time with my fiance.

I wish I have more time.

Don't Just See, But LOOK

2010-04-06T06:44:00.000-07:00

I don't know what you see in me.
I see what I never saw in me.
I see you saw something that I don't see what I'm seeing.
Seeing what you saw that I don't see hurts me.
Cause that's not what I want you to see.
But you keep seeing the things you said you see.

See, love is not blind, but cross-eyed.

COFFEE

2010-04-02T22:36:00.000-07:00

Dusty. Rusty. Busty.

Am still here, but inactive for a while.
Will be right back ok?

12:101

2010-03-04T10:58:00.000-08:00

I spoil my nieces. Spoiling the ones at Tanjung Pinang too.

I'm freaking bored at home, someone please bail me out. I imprisoned myself, which some people say its a good thing, yes?
So I spend almost everyday cooking, yes I have been picking up cooking lessons with my mom. I clean the house, i do the laundry, ironing, and all the things a housewife should do. Just because I'm getting married, that doesn't mean I have to start training myself with the endless house chores. Ladies! YOU have to start doing the chores, or at least help your mothers. Yea, I know it's a modern world, where women don't enter the kitchen and wear apron. It is sad that some of the girls/women I know, leave their house without helping their wonderful mothers with the housework. At least during the weekends? Your mother needs a break too.

Anyways, I want to see the world, ok except spending my nights helping my brother at Simpang.
But it seems that it's better if I don't step out to the streets. Saving up is not an easy job. I still cannot differentiate of what I NEED and what I WANT. I spend on everything or anything I like.
Maka kapan langsungnya pernikahan gue sih dong Mas?
I'm doing my part too, cause its my responsibility to do so.

Speaking of responsibility, I realized that the responsibility of a women is so huge. So so huge, that I fear of what I'm going to face in the future. But I admire the beauty of God's creation of females. I'm not preaching here, but... it is really wonderful, when you understand women in religious context. Simple yet we like to complicate things. I shall not say more here.

Sometimes, I only look forward to Fridays. The only chance I get to see you for... a few hours, catching up, or just watch me prepare you lunch. We have yet to spend time together, just the both of us. I envy those who date with their partners.
If love is about sacrifices, then I think I'm truly in love! Haha! Betol perrr.
We have to sacrifice A LOT, sadly.
And Jaan, I doubt we'll be seeing each other when my semester starts.
So to those lovers out there, treasure your partners, as they are always there with you when you need them. Or least they try to be there for you. Mine can't, but there is someONE who is always here and there for me.

Tree Kora Again

2010-02-23T21:15:00.000-08:00

The short trip to Tanjung Pinang was awesome. The families were welcoming, and we really had so much fun there. We spend most of our time eating, and believe me, the kampong food were Mamamiaaa! I did not want to go home since I am having holidays here, and have not been attached to any intern yet, why not stay over at my in-laws, no? I miss them so much. And, I am grateful to be part of Dedi's family.

Thank you for the times we have spent over there. It feels better to spend quality time with you once in a while. Hearing your voice over the phone is already good enough for me. Cause I always believe that good things will come, if we wait.
I miss you Dedek.

sorry...

2010-02-11T19:59:00.000-08:00

I've abandoned a lot of people lately. I apologize for my absence, due to my packed schedule, busyness, commitments, etc. I am truly sorry, to yous especially. Please don't think that way, I did not intend to. I did not notice myself, how distant I have been from all of you.

I will make time for you people. I will.

And being sick on a holiday is NEVER COOL.

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR TO ALL CINONEHS, AND HAPPY HOLIDAYS TO MY PEOPLE!!!

The couple comes back.

2010-02-09T01:58:00.000-08:00

It has been a long time since I indulge myself with entertainment, especially Hindi movies. Need to update myself with the latest Bollywood box-office hits, like how I see the Korean fan-atics are making a big hoo-haa about I-don't-know what band is coming to Singapore.

A MUST WATCH AFTER I GET BACK FROM HONEYMOON.

Do you have anything to say?

2010-02-06T09:25:00.000-08:00

Finally, IMC presentation's over. January has been a hectic month for me. Too many things to be completed within weeks, days, and hours. Thank God, I pulled through. Now I'm just left with Stage Management and Arts Marketing UT, and I-Theatre interview.

I cannot wait for Feb 12th. :)

White, Red, Gold

A step further.
A higher level.
The next stage.
Moved on.

I can't believe it myself. And 25 days was all it took to happen.

Ya Halwa, I do not know how to put my words into sentence. Oh can someone describe these feelings for me?

I stutter when I see you; tongue-tied. I grasp for air when you're near me. I could feel the adrenaline rush when you brought me to this wonderful ride.

The magic carpet- it gave light to direct us to the right destination.
A whole new world with you.

broken

2010-01-27T05:49:00.000-08:00

It's sad, really sad.

Just come at the right time, and let there be peace and love all around.

It's a huge disappointment, and I didn't expect this from you(s).

I dare not say much now.

Everything will be alright Lynn.

ta'aruf

2010-01-17T06:32:00.000-08:00

Rush Hour.

Yes.

Record breaking.

Assignments, appointments, and all the -ments in the world.

Oh what a coincidence, baby.

Loving you.

"I am very happy to live in this world, in this time, to experience this amazing human possibility of ta'aruf, knowing one another and recognizing the common ground between us."

-Moez Masoud

all i wanted to know

2010-01-13T08:39:00.000-08:00

Say that to me, again.
Let me see where the lights are heading to.
Does the sail navigate to the right pole?
Will you bring me to the island where there are no inhabitants, so that we can build a simple paradise, surrounded by love?

Gwen Stefani stayed up till four.

But wake me up at three in the morning.

AYE AYE

2010-01-10T04:46:00.000-08:00

Finally, TFVU is over. Sad, that it is already over, happy, that the whole production team contributed great efforts to make this a success.

21st- nothing extravagant, but YOU stole my limelight.

Nontheless, I like the way you won't let me breathe.

Land now, ya halwa.

I'm having seasick.

NOW. ARTS MANAGEMENT, HERE I COME.

cause all i do is ...

2010-01-03T07:51:00.000-08:00

New Year was nothing much. Usuals.

School starts later, UT at 4.30pm. Studied? No. That's why I am here. I couldn't focus. Exultant for a while, then melancholized. Why? Cause you understand no shit.

I don't know what I am feeling right now, both ecstatic and dejected. But mister, I cannot wait to see you. Please please, I need an angel now.

move bitch

2009-12-30T21:56:00.000-08:00

It's time to really move on to the other side of life. It is fair to have both good and bad times each year, so we cannot really tell which year gives you the best happenings or the worst. Life is a rollercoaster ride indeed, it brings you up to cloud nine, and you will feel the adrenaline rush when it falls down.

2009, brought me lesser happiness. Does it happen everytime you get older? Or is it just me? Some people found new love, new friends, new work, new environment, and whatever makes them wet. I haven't found the things that I want or need, or maybe it's found, but hard to reach?

I don't have any resolutions for 2010. Resolutions never worked. You list down your reslotions, cause everybody else does, and you want to feel that you have things to accomplish as well. But, did you even start working it out once the clock strikes midnight? No. You paste the list on your memo board, just to take up the space other than your polariod collections. You will only realize that you have that list after 6 months. If you have a loads of things to accomplish, and you don't meet the quota, don't you feel like a big failure, you loser. And only if you are a motivated person, you will try harder at the next round, else you will just admit defeat.

I'll just go with the flow, and will just do and endure with what is best for me, myself and I. I plan nothing for this new year, but to just move on forward with life. Let the past fly away to dust, and may the new year comes with better blessings.

I just feel like I need some time alone for the last hours of 2009. I just don't feel the need to celebrate, dance, drink, getting wasted and all. I don't even feel like going down to Spize to count down with them. I don't know. I just want to be with Ruby for now.

To all my lovelies, have a wonderful and euphoric NEW YEAR!

Wake Up

2009-12-24T21:42:00.000-08:00

Raymond & CO. Escapade II

Malacca and KL was ouhkaaaayyy.

I'd prefer last year's trip though.

Dear Ruby,

you didn't know how my heart beat stopped for a moment.

I was at my weakest point;

I was paralysed, I couldn't utter a single word

I couldn't bear to watch you suffer.

Don't judge my silence;

nobody knows what I'm feeling.

...

I love you.

eye is sleepy

2009-12-09T07:35:00.000-08:00

Current.

Uber jaded, but I can't sleep. Diagnosed with insomnia, no? I just wanna lie down naked on the bed, get a puff, then about 6 hours of sleep, and dream of what is going to happen tomorrow.

The drawing and painting, the cutting and pasting, the mixing and splashing, the measuring and marking, kept me busy the whole day, you didn't even come across my mind.

I'm so pissed. But look, I couldn't care less.

Ibn Fadillah

2009-12-08T09:34:00.000-08:00

jyeah.

Sad-urday

2009-12-05T06:20:00.000-08:00

אני האהוב של האהוב שלי הוא

I want to get this phrase tattooed on my back. Can? From the nape down, just like Posh Spice. Lovely.

I'm super duper bored at home this weekend. Sometimes I wished that I'm still working, so that I can have some income for myself. I want to shop, but the absence of *beep* hinders me from stepping out of the house. Futhermore, it's raining, too cold to play outside.

Too much work to do, I don't even know which one to start first. Oh someone, please enlighten me. December is not the holiday season for me. I doubt I can even go for Zouk Out. I want to cancel my holiday with my family. I can predict the rehearsal schedule for the upcoming weeks. I can see how busy I will be.

Well, I think I'd rather be busy than having too much fun or nothing to do at all. I can't keep contemplating on the unneccessary stuff. Lynn, you have to move on, and move along. Things will come your way if you wait.

And oh you, are so childish.

Honey

2009-12-02T08:07:00.000-08:00

The way to love anything is to realize that it might be lost.

-G.K. Chesterton

Off The Wall

2009-11-30T08:03:00.000-08:00

Supposedly to be pasted on your blady door. Thanks to Dad, you were saved.

Anddd, Happy 21st!

The surprise wasn't much of a surprise, cause I called him to ask if he was working, just to double-check. So anyway, I was happy to see him after such a long time. Rushed to ION to get him a gift, which I was indecisive of. Got him a Volcom t-shirt, and he loves it! We exchanged our busy-life stories, but was cut short by the delivery orders.

There's so much to share, and I hope to see you and the rest when I have the time to. Anyway, Mummy misses you, and she cooked your favorite dish today. (=

Saus Kacang

2009-11-27T07:35:00.000-08:00

"Kok kegagalan itu penting. Kalau nggak ada kegagalan, nggak ada penghargaan 'tuk keberhasilan."

I wish I could ground the peanuts when I go nuts. Vent out all the emotions that's burning me. I used to vent my anger while preparing coleslaw. I could feel the muscle contract and my veins protrude.

I'll ground peppers tomorrow.

La Tortura

2009-11-25T21:19:00.000-08:00

It's piling up.

La Tortura.

BannerArt is out. I don' think I can manage it, and I do not even have the time to collect the canvas and painting kit. Futhermore, I've seen some banners which were AWEsome. Competitive much, thus I'm not up for it.

Now I'm down with four things to do. 4 sounds diminutive huh, but oh my, the things that we have to prepare and do are unquantafiable.

And oh, I look fat and ugly in the news! And I should have watched Channel 8 news, cause there are embarrassing stuff there. Haha!

I'm craving for ice-creams, but I noticed that I'm growing fatter. And this must stop. Yes, I know I have been bragging about jogging and workouts, but look, I'm just too busy can? Well, if there's a will there's a way. I will make some way for fat burning exercises soon.

Running in the Rain

2009-11-18T06:14:00.000-08:00

She cuts herself to forget him

And every time the wounds get deeper

Tonight's the night she's gonna shed her skin

Cause she's thinking that he doesn't need her

She's wishing that all this would end

She's gonna try to take her own life again

Wait, I know your hearts been shattered

But there's some worth the wait

There's so much more that matters

And I know you'll be alright, just try

to love the little things in life

Like running in the rain.

-Hinder

empty you.

2009-11-12T06:19:00.000-08:00

You disappoint me.

Cheat me feelings.

Please don't this to me every morning.

MEOWWWWW!!!

2009-11-10T07:56:00.001-08:00

I was scolded by a cat earlier.

Rawr!

I is sad, and pissed as well.

Pussy you.

adrenaline rush

2009-11-08T20:14:00.000-08:00

Done.

But I think this is just the beginning. I am still at a starting point. People used to say, 'take things slowly', but no, it does not work for me. The slower you are, the further you are going to lack behind. I have a weak stamina, I cannot run to pace up with you.

I have skipped Arts Marketing twice, and swear this is going to be the last time I miss this crucial module. I fell asleep in front of my laptop while reading the notes on the screen. I woke up late, and went back to sleep. Too lethargic. Back ached for a week. Masseuse, where art thou?

Too much investments made, be it time or monetary. I blame myself for its loss. My bad. I'm too fly to feel depress, no? All I need now is to re-do everything with all the limited resources. I hope it could be ready before 22/11.

72-13- Expo Zero

Missing Bodies.

Set me thinking.

Yes, I am waiting for "nothing".

Move on.

I tried to wake her up. I poked her and everything.

2009-11-02T18:23:00.000-08:00

My Sister's Keeper

Tear-jerker.

Totally.

Don't ask how much I cried.

Watch it, people.

Cameron Diaz pulled it off as a mother. She has the 'never-say-die' spirit and strong, but internally, she wasn't.

I shall not tell you more about it. Go catch it soon!

let's learn english

2009-11-01T07:04:00.000-08:00

Break

Broke

Broken

All has it's different defintion hasn't it?

Just so you know.

Define it your way.

take a break

2009-10-31T22:37:00.000-07:00

Like in a box.

I tried to push the walls, to escape.

I cannot breathe.

So dark, I was afraid.

Even with myself.

Disappointment every diasppointment.

This is not a love game.

Ameteur party.

Displeasing S.A.M

Overheating arguments.

Now, I need a Kit Kat.

No.

Kit Kats.

My Ruby

2009-10-24T07:55:00.000-07:00

I couldn't find a nice picture of this lady.
This lady is the most special person in my life.
She is my heart and soul.
I couldn't imagine how my life would be without her.
I adore her strength although she knew she could not afford to be strong anymore.
She will never say die.

This lady has been the one making me laugh all day long.
But she was the one, I used to hurt and let her shed tears.
She was the one I usually raise my voice at.
And I could remember the the agony on her face when she had begged at my knees.

How could I be so...
I couldn't find words to describe how bad I was.
How could I ever ill-treat her?

Mummy, I Love You.
Please be strong cause I need you.

And, I wouldn't be talking too much anymore. I'm too tired.

my supper club

2009-10-21T19:23:00.000-07:00

I MISS YOU.

SO MUCH.

Am sure that most of you are already aware of my resignation.

I have to leave because of school.

Too much too mention.

I felt lighter after I left.

But I left with a heavy heart.

Fridays have been more relaxed.

But at times, I still thought that I have to rush to work.

I'll drop by anytime soon.

345

2009-10-11T12:45:00.000-07:00

It is like Chips More.

Sometimes its there, sometimes not.

I miss Abang Faizal already. Yes, badly.

School's fine. Except that there are lots of work piling up on me.

1000(!) word essays everyday.

Portfolio- not yet thought about what to do.

Chingay costume- a quater done and not going anywhere-yet.

"Made to Wear"- back-breaking much.

Amran's IG?

Spize? Have not been going to work lately.

And have not met my bitchy neighbours.

Alaaaa. Lynn tired. :(

2 more months.

2009-10-04T02:21:00.000-07:00

Do not ask if my holidays were good.

I really don't know what to do.

Leave? Maybe not now.

I have _______. In the same time, I don't.

Sons of bitches they come they go.

My costume is a quater ready, and I like how it looks. (:

I got a lot more to do, and I'm going to make this happen.

And since I didn't get any electives, I will sit back, and continue sewing my costume.

I'm still thinking of what to do with my bottom, though.

Many thanks to Azel and Raihan.

And Abg Faizal, I love you.

Eid Mubarak

2009-09-22T02:51:00.000-07:00

Lynn would like to wish all Muslims Salam Lebaran Minal Eidul Wal Faizin.

It's 3rd of Syawal, but not too late to wish right?

As usual, didn't go out visiting, cause I have loads of relatives visiting my place. It was a not as tiring as the previous years, cause this year, Sis bought a buffet set for Mummy, and visitors self-serve. I don't have to wash dishes anymore! Weee.

And I broke my record this year! I did not shed a single tear when I was asking forgiveness from all my siblings, and parents. Fuhh. Control emosi katekan. Hehe! My brother was teasing me and telling everyone, 'Wah Cik In this year da matured, da tak gembeng lagi' (Wah Cik In is already matured this year, she don't cry anymore). Haha! Jahat!

But for a while, I was pissed with my niece, cause she left the camera at home! So no pictures for the first day. =(

Anyways, since Daddy is busy, I will only go out with friends this year. So book me if u need me, inform earlier so i could take off from work. Have a good celebration ya'll!

What For?

2009-09-14T00:38:00.000-07:00

Majority said I shouldn't have. They gave me fcukfaces. They started blabbering things I don't want to hear.

Why?

Long time no update.

2009-09-07T00:10:00.000-07:00

RMJ or what?! Ouhk, Chingay workshop was fun, cause we won the most votes for our costume. Hehh! Shimada was the girl yo!

I have been very busy lately. Yes, with Chingay's costume- which I have not started yet. I have this urge to change or use another material for my costume, after attending the workshop. Hmmmm.

Two more weeks to Aidilfitri. No money. Boohoo. Soooo, I am working on weekdays! Ramadhan at Spize is fun, despite the busy-ness-panicky-kemutish atmosphere.

Note to,

SERVERS: TELL YOUR CUSTOMERS TO ORDER THEIR FOOD FAST, IF THEY WANT TO BREAK ON TIME. (DUH)

REMIND THEM THE WAITING TIME, AND NOT TO COMPLAIN IF THEIR FOOD ARRIVES LATE.

RUNNERS: OPEN YOUR EYES AND EARS. CANNOT SEE, LISTEN. CANNOT HEAR, LOOK.

KITCHEN: JANGAN PANIC UH SIA.

BEVERAGE BOYS: SEND TO THE RIGHT TABLES, PLEASE?

CUSTOMERS:

1.DO NOT WASTE TIME, BROWSING THE MENU, AND ORDER LAME, PATHETIC FOOD. e.g: Chicken Rice.

2.ORDER WELL-DONE STEAKS, WILL TAKE A VERY LONG TIME. SO, DO NOT COMPLAIN, 'WHERE'S MY STEAK?'

OR, 'I ORDERED WELL-DONE, BUT GOT BLOOD.' BLOODY HELL, CAUSE YOU WANTED IT FAST, SO THEY HAD TO OBLIGE TO YOUR ORDERS, NO?

3. DO NOT RUSH THE COOKS. THEY ARE NOT COOKING YOUR DISH ONLY.

4. BE PATIENT. VERY PATIENT.

5. TRY NOT TO CHANGE YOUR ORDERS, WHEN THEY ARE ALREADY KEYED IN.

So this are the problems you have to face every holy month. Testing me patience much. Malays nowadays are so atas. Some step atas. Podaaaa!

Oh, Ijah's going to Perth tomorrow! Fun fun fun! Buy me something can? Have a safe and trip there!

Eyerah wants me to say this.

Ira cute. (:

Come to Me

2009-08-12T20:20:00.000-07:00

i need a loooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooong hug.

Anyone?

I can't breathe. There's a long rope hanging around my neck. Omg, I feel so 'Sarah' now. I'm so tied to the tight schedules, I do not even have time for myself. I feel sorry for Bali, who has been waiting for me after classes, and at times, i have to 'ditch' him. Sorry Bali!

Oh, to Han too, sorry. I really don't know why we have to argue all the time. Always. Hobby huh?

And, I don't want to worry. Please? Enough of the pressure that has been put onto me. I don't want anymore pimples, and irregular periods.

insomnia

2009-07-30T20:27:00.000-07:00

"Now tonight, I sleep alone. It’s probably healthy because when I’m tangled up with you I can hardly sleep at all. I spend the whole night on fire, quietly smouldering most of the time… But not tonight. You’re there and I’m here. I could never tell you this, but every night your body isn’t pressed against mine, I have to pack pillows around myself just to fall asleep. But we are just friends, and I’m sure you sleep fine without me."

brutal lagi romantis kok!

2009-07-20T19:08:00.000-07:00

"Aku sayang kamu, bodoh."

caught up!

2009-07-19T05:38:00.000-07:00

So you readers(if any), might know why I have not updated regularly. I can't keep mentioning how I'm caught up with stuff and yada yada yada.

And so I've met Robert, my niece's German boyfie. Well, just a typical ang moh. Likeeee... it's like when you see a typical malay mat, like there's no x-factor, or anything special that get you hypnotized. Yaaaa. Only that he's the 'mat salleh' version.

Spize is recruitting Singaporean staffs. And there are a few youngsters who have applied for part-time. Hmm. There are 2 MATS. Oh maaaan. And I swear I would prefer my Malaysian boys. The freshies are... disgusting? Piercings, eyebrow-less, tattoos, those stares. Oooh, I'm scared like eff. Not that I'm against it, but is not appropriate for work isn't it? Well, Anil or Ray wouldn't mind, but it's kinda an eye sore to me. Grow up(kids).

A few more weeks to Ramadhan. Shopping for Raya soon. Mom has 'warned' me to go shop as soon as i get my moolahs. =(

DATA MANAGEMENT

2009-07-08T19:53:00.000-07:00

Lynn: Tak tau nak blog pasal ape seh

Saffy: Cakap pasal class uh.

Ok, the class is goddamnit cold. My temperature is 35.1 degree. My right foot is hurting from i-don't-know-what.

Dreamweaver-ing today. Sounds fun though. Hey, school's fun anyway kannnnn. Ok, i cannot get hold of this web-designig thingy yet, so ya(!), I have to pay attention to Amran.

See ya!

Kepada Peminat Setia

2009-06-29T18:58:00.000-07:00

Time is flying damn fast. Got lotsa things to catch. Chasing one after another.

I want to learn more about SUBTEXT. AHHA. Cause i'm tired of being straight forward.

Oh, I thought of getting bangs. Duh, gonna rebond it la, not 'crinkled-cut-fries' fringe.

What do you think? I don't wanna do something i'll regret. Pfft.

And of, Fitri got curls. Tribute to MJ. (=

I'm craving for Garlic Bread from my own shop. No, not Spize's, Lynkin's tastes better. Hehe.

pretty spizey

2009-06-15T19:50:00.000-07:00

I miss my baby. 5 more days and they will be back.

Just you look at who she was waving at before she departed. Not us, obviously.

Silently waving at her Kenken, who's somewhere near there, hiding. Awwww.

Anyway, Fitri will be back soon. 4 more days? I want to leave. Or at least, I want lunch shift, so I do not have to see him. I'm considering of leaving Spize. But, sayaaang. And futhermore, my sister needs me there. She'll leave too if I do. Tsk. How?

And, to H and R, i'm watching you.

S.O.S no more, sweetbuns.

2009-06-09T00:42:00.000-07:00

Emergency number is 911.

NOT ....6587.

My service is no longer available.

And that, goes to EVERYONE.

And, please be reminded that, this is NOT a temporary deactivation.

Futher changes will be notified.

Thank 'yous' for using *beep* and your LOYAL support.

no title sia?

2009-05-27T19:34:00.000-07:00

I know I have not been updating regularly. Busy with school and work. That is it. My life revolves around RP and SB.

Holiday is a day away, and tell me, should i be happy, or something to rant about.

So people, IF you decide to plan an outing with me, tell me in advance, by this Saturday, LATEST(!).

I heard my uncle is coming to Singapore for a performance. I'm not sure where exactly is he perfoming at, and if he's playing with Sweet Charity. I don't think you guys know who Rosli Mohalim is anyway. Yes, that's my Dad's baby brother. Look at our curls man. Authentic curls yo! Anyway, i thought of watching him play.

I need a freaking break. Really. Daddy's busy with his business, Mom's sick, result- NO HOLIDAY.

Work la no choice. bleargh.

p.s: i'll upload the bridal pictures soon.

heart you.

2009-05-11T20:40:00.000-07:00

How to lose weight in 5 days?

I really have to.

In FIVE freaking days.

And, YOU panicked me. Your heartbeat scare me, totally.

i say Bye Bye Bye.

2009-05-09T06:43:00.000-07:00

WHAT THE EFFING HELL IS HAPPENING????!!!!

I'm leaving. For GOOD. I don't want to say or do something that I'll regret. But, this is decided. I'm making my freaking move.

Lily.

2009-05-06T22:23:00.000-07:00

Somebody, tell me where to go after school, please?

(a) Meet H for a movie date.

(b) 'CrushCrush'. *smiles*

(d) Home Sweet Home.

Hoooow???

Anyway, did I tell you, that I'm happy?

EXORBITANTLY EUPHORIC.

SWINE ATTACK!

2009-05-06T02:42:00.000-07:00

Tight securities, hassling procedures, scans, detectors, thermomethers,stickers, masks.

"Better be safe than sorry"

Influenza A has caused, in this context, Singapore, or shall I say Republic Polytechnic, a sense of EXTREME precatious against this pandemic.

Just so you know, I am currently blogging outside Tan Tock Seng Hospital, at the taxi stand to be precise. I can't freaking visit R, for the mean time, cause a visitor just went up. Eff. Had to exit lor. And omg(!), can i wear no mask please?

I'm clean, totally.

to dearest Bali and Wene

2009-04-28T18:28:00.000-07:00

I don't know how long exactly since I last update, BUT, starting from TODAY, I'm gonna blog OFTEN.

First, I'm busy with school. Second, with work. Gees. Busy life indeed.

Eh, i blog later can? I'm brain-dead for now.

Back to School!

2009-04-22T00:35:00.000-07:00

School has been... fine so far. See the girl in the picture above? I have to see this Diva everyday. Like EVERYDAY sia. Hehehhe! So, if you see us, WAVE, say HIE. Hahha.

bored aggression

2009-03-29T22:35:00.000-07:00

My life is dull. There's nothing I need to update, cause it'll bore you to death. I work everyday. My schedule is hectic. No time for anyone in the world, not even myself. I'll see you when I see you.

May i take your order?

2009-03-02T08:05:00.000-08:00

Currently still at work. using Abg Faizal's lappie. (=

killing them softly

2009-02-23T23:38:00.000-08:00

Some people are uber ignorant. Looked as if they are HIGHLY EDUCATED, but eff, where's the sense of humanity? So what if YOU are one of the hierarchy of the company? It does not make YOU have all the power, YOU think YOU should have.

Sir, I recommend YOU to take 'Anger Management' sessions. I believe that YOU really need it. We, HUMAN, have feelings too. YOU do not respect your own 'people', but they respect YOU out of obligation. YOU very well know that they would never go against YOU, thus, took advantage of their weaknesses.

Have YOU ever know what they feel deep inside? I totally feel for them. I can almost tear, when I see YOU in your inhumane act.

I keep pondering, on why YOU, behave in that manner? Why was it not Mr. A? When I believe he should, not YOU. I look up onto him, cause HE deserves every respect from us.

YOU believe, that customers are always right, yes it is true. YOU try your very best to make them satisfied. But, your people SUFFER. YOU victimised them for the sake of your customers. YOU have abused them emotionally, which is worse than being beaten.

Please Mr. R, you have to change.

apek

2009-02-22T07:12:00.000-08:00

I was effing surprised, when I saw the caller's name on my cellphone. Should I answer or not?
I was afraid, that it might be H, but, eventually I answered.

After so long, Zul called. He was my 'twin'. Well, friends told us that we kinda look alike. Those big round eyes, wavy hair, but he has a sharper nose. pfft. Anyway, he was at Simpang with Rin. I've been longing to meet his girlfriend. Yes, I mix around well with friends' partners.
He thought I was working, which I technically was. However, I went home at 19:30, cause I wasn't feeling well. And I was darn sleepy, cause I only had 2 hours of sleep last night.

And many congrats to Dhirah. (=
May you lead a wonderful life ahead.
And you do not have to worry about me.

p.s: i wanna fly kite.

i am current.

2009-02-19T18:55:00.000-08:00

Currently waiting for Fakhrul and Abg Faizal.

Currently craving for 'paper thosai'.

Currently hooked to "Turn your lights down low".

Currently not in good terms with a few people.

Currently loving flowers in my hair. And big ribbons too.

Currently I'm a loanshark.

Currently BROKE, though.

Currently missing loads of people.

Currently blogging.

Currently NAKED. =p

Aye, they've called. Clothes on! See ya'll soooon.

it makes me smile...

2009-02-16T22:04:00.000-08:00

These days, I have been enduring varieties of disorders. Mainly, sleeping and eating. I can't sleep, although I yawn umteen times. Sleepy, but my eyes are wide open.

Serve me the most finger-lickin'-good dish, I'll take one bite, and I'm full. Fuck, I'm hungry, but I got no appetite at all.

What's happening?

Time was kinda fast last night during work. And a Chinese man, totally made my night la. He was staring and smiling at me while I was taking their orders. And i kept giggling at his cunning look. I mean, he looked...nevermind. Afterall, he told me that i had a nice beautiful smile(!) Hahaha! I was like... 'don't kid me!' He kept telling me and showing how my cheeks look cute when I smile. wtf. I'm chubby like eff. He was praising me like fuck, I felt that I really need to go loo, cause I was laughing, instead of taking down their orders. And the man recommended that Spize should make Roti John Lynn, a tribute to my smile. WTF. How was that related sia? Anyway, THANK YOU LA UNCLE!

Anyways, FRIENDS, I MISS ALL OF YOU!
I really do.
There are a lot of people i wanna meet. A lot of stories to tell.

back to black

2009-02-10T02:02:00.000-08:00

Someone, entertain me, please?

I guess my off-days are on Tuesdays, cause I had it last week too. Have not been going out for ssooo long. I don't have time, no one gives me time, times are bad, daa dee daa dee daa. I don't really need an off day, i suppose. Cause it seems that everyone's busy with their lives too. I want to work everyday, although it tires me. I need cash. As some of you(s) might know, where most of my pay goes to, i don't really have enough for myself. Mind you, i've never done shopping for... tsk, it has been ages since i went to town. I need the moolahs for my basic neccessities aye. Even Mom knows that i buy nothings with my pay. I don't even know what i spent it on. Thus, a day off doesn't make any difference to me. I don't go out, nor sleep till the next morning.

It's 18:50, and I'm still thinking where to go for dinner with Mom. I'm craving for western food, but i ain't gonna cook for myself.

I have not been talking to _____ for a week or two. 3 cheers for me! I do miss _____, but heck, i believe i can do it with _____. Not my loss aye. Time to be self-centred baby. If you can't even make the least effort, why do you think i should, huh? Well, i've done all that i could, but it was meaningless nothings. It's pretty sad, that i have to do this. I'm sorry.

I'm famished. Guess, I'll bring her to Spize. Urgh, there's like nowhere else to go huh, Lynn?

molly's =)

2009-02-03T22:48:00.000-08:00

I think I'm diagnosing insomnia, cause lately, I can't sleep.

It's like, "Day and night, I toss and turn, I keep stressin’ my mind, mind. I look for peace, but see I don’t attain."

It has been 2 weeks of holiday, and it's a 'yayy' and an 'awwwww'.

Monday-Thursday: Spize service - 18:00hrs-00:00hrs

Friday: Spize Dessert: 17:30hrs-23:00hrs

Saturday & Sunday: 15:00hrs-23:00hrs

See my schedule? And in the day- house chores, sending nieces to school, and yes(!) I need to go for my practical lesson.

Past few weeks of work, was ooook, cause i gotta friend who helped out during the Chinese New Year, and it was not as busy as expected. Now, as I'm doing service at Spize, I need to learn the PDA thingy, and ass, Fitri's too sick and lazy to teach me. And i think i'm cooler than u guys cause i don't need a uniform. LYNN DIVA. Hahh.

And I would like to wish, Azuin and Fudge, HAPPY BIRTHDAY! Yeah, i know it's too late, and i'm soooooooo sorry i didn't have the time to get ya'll stuff. And thanks Fudge, for the invitation. Will meet soon aye. Love you both!

Actually... i miss tons of people. =)

no title.

2009-02-01T23:59:00.001-08:00

one word.

.SELFISH.

oh yes, thank you.

if you get what i mean.

2009-01-21T06:22:00.000-08:00

and so, we can't wait.

in the heat, we're gonna play ice and water.

sweeten the nights with rastafaric colours of sugar.

let's quench all thirst.

let it melt in the mouth.

aaahhh.

satisfaction.

keep coming back for more.

damai zoo hees.

2009-01-18T19:32:00.000-08:00

*time check*

8a.m. shit. I'm late for school. NOT.

After 2 years, I was walking back to Damai Secondary, to settle my library fine and collect my 2 years old 'O' level certificate. And oh, Hyder 'pushed' his Baby Glela to school. -.-

Total amount of my fine was $27 but reduced to $20. ASS. That freaking lady who was in charge of the library was a bitch. Totally.

So Hyde and I decided to walk around the school. So much of memories at every corner of the corridor. Laughing our ass out, thinking back of the mischief we did in school. Met a few of our teachers. Had a long chat with Miss Shawa, the effing coolio teacher anyone could ask for. Searched for Mr. Saiful, to ask about our Art pieces, but he was M.I.A in school. SO we just broke in to the Art room, which I think is cool now. There are paintings on the walls (outside the room) and it's just so... artistic. So we searched for our pieces and eewww, I totally dislike my artwork. I could have done sooooo much better. See, the outcome of delaying your assignments will be *i don't know what disgusting word to say*

'Smoking Kills', says Hadi.

Proceeded to Ang Mo Kio to meet Ili for the belated birthday surprise. But Ina, accidentally text me about going to the surprise location. HAHAHAHAHA! Ili had to lie (which she suck at it), to me. Sucker. Anyways, Thanks for everything babe!

with love

@#$%^&()&^%$@#$%&^()&^%$#$%^&

2009-01-17T19:00:00.000-08:00

fuck everyone fuck.

*lynn swears all vulgarities in all kinds of language to EVERYONE*

take me away

2009-01-15T19:10:00.000-08:00

Blind. Everyone is.

At times, we do not even realize the slightest sins we have done.

So much things had happened. So much that I have realized.

How people appreciate your presence, your sacrifice, sincerity, everything.

Looking at the 'Orang Utans' yesterday, was the most touching thing ever.

Why are human not like them?

The baby showered with full of love by the parent.

The love for a friend.

Love for the beloved.

Friends, they come, they go.

The ones who stays, are the ones, who accepts you the way you are.

Fights, quarrels, misunderstandings, are ubiquitous.

Cause these are the factors that keeps the friendship stronger.

A true friend, stabs you in the front.

A true friend tells the truth, which hurts a lot.

Afterall, it's because they love you.

Would you rather love, or be loved?

I would go for both.

Think for yourself why.

I believe we fall in love once.

ONCE.

I did.

Cause my love for 'it' is still alive and strong.

hooked.

2009-01-15T06:05:00.000-08:00

Hookah-ed last Friday with them peeps. Thanks, for whatever ya'll have tried, to make things happen.

Went down Simpang to meet Yati, who promised to wait. Damn, she left. BUT, guess who was there???

An ex-colleague from True Spa.I was so shocked to see HIM, together with his pretty friends. And I totally forgot HIS name, but I remembered it starts with 'F'. So sweet that he remembered mine, with the correct pronounciation, and sweetest much, he still has the gift i gave him. awwww.

friends, meet Faja.

bend it like Zameer

2009-01-10T11:13:00.000-08:00

I'm effing shagged, and uploading Fitri's pictures on Friendster is taking forever. I'm gonna sleep soon after the last picture is done.

And Zameer just called. =D

Zameer: Sayang, sayang kat mane?

Me: Home.

Zameer: Sayang da balik? I baru sampai Simpang.

Me: Touching nye. -.-

Zameer: At least I called, babe.

Me: I know. Who are you with?

Zameer: Standard, my cousins, who else. I baru balik karaoke. Beh, you tak nak go out with me.

Me: wtf.

Zameer: You, macam mane kite nak kahwin sia gini?

Me: Think for yourself.

Zameer: You have always understood, anyway.

Me: (-.-)

A decade old friend has never failed to annoy me, especially, *time check*, 3a.m onwards. He spend time kicking balls, EVERYDAY, neglecting his own life. And still has the cheek to blame me, for not going out with him. I'm so gonna kick your balls, baby.

And many thanks to Abg Fendy. I Love You So Mucho. Sooo sweet of you.

aged

2009-01-06T06:38:00.000-08:00

Happy 20th, to ME! And so, I've aged, yesterday. No more teen, and I feel kinda... mature? LOL.

Thank you everyone, for the wishes, lies, and cute lil surprises.

"Ok Lynn, close your eyes, make a wish before you blw the candles."

So what did I wish for?

nothing.

All I did was stare at the cakes for 2 seconds, and *poof*. I wished nothing, I couldn't think of anything at all. I don't know what to ask for. Let me think for a while. What do I need or even want? *thinkingggg*

Ok done. HAPPINESS. Man, this is so ubiquitous. Everybody wants happiness, who doesn't? But anyway, I really do want happiness in my life. The happiness that I DESERVE to have.

SInce I've been promising Bob, to eat at his place one fine day, I decided to treat myself at a fine dining restaurant in Simpang Bedok, 'Sedap Corner'. I wanted to bring the bestfriend there yesterday, but he had another plan. So, i enjoyed my loner dinner, accompanied by Latin American music. I had ...god, i forgot the name of the meal, but it was pasta ala Thai. Awesome! And my tongue was 'burnt' when i chewed on chili padi! At first i thought it was sliced chili, so i just popped it in me mouth. Damn, when all the seeds were smothering my tongue, i teared so bad, i could feel the heat in my throat. ass.

Less(food) is more(money).

Now, who says celebrities are nice people?

Cute surprises came up yesterday. The girls were PUNK'D by the bestfriend. LOL. The B.A.L.I, (actually withot the L), surprised me with a cute cute card, and a gift. Thank yous sooo much. I love it to bits. Sisters, nieces and nephews, came with a Burger cake (konon-konon Burger set uh from Lynkin -.-) Surprised by Ina and Ili, at midnight. Ili claimed that her cat has not been coming home for 3 days, and wanted me to accompany her search for him. Liar liar pants on fire. Hahha! Fire?! Can call Husshuss. Hahhahha!

" you just got punk'd by hyde kutcher!"

the card. cute ain't it???

Wished the night was longer, or endless.

Headed to the Marina Barrage late night, and sweets for the sweet, with Secret Recipe.

There are no words that could describe the euphoria I was feeling. Tempo of the heartbeat reached its critical level.

'moving at the speed of light into eternity'

14324.

p.s: check out Ili's blog for the midnight lie-cum-surprise.

always spizzin' up ya life

2009-01-04T22:31:00.000-08:00

Counting down the very last second with Spize. Every year, they will be the only shop that merrily celebrates New Year. Party hats, balloons, party poppers, and everything you'll find in a kid's birthday party. All staffs got together, dancing, singing, making loads of noise, as they waited for midnight. Flashlights all over, as we enjoyed cam-whoring that night.

I've thought of leaving Spize, for good. However, it seems that Molly needs me very badly. And when I got a lot of hugs and encouragements from the brothers, I was so touched, I could barely speak. Where on earth could you find, people so caring, pampering me with all their fatherly and brotherly love. Switching to a better job, doesn't gurantee me happiness. So, i shall stay at Spize. And to Fitri, I would like to say that I am still trying, and I need time, and I believe that you understand the situation I am in right now.

Anyways, not all pictures are here cause, there was some technical problems, while i was uploading.

And so, Bro Fendy said "Spize Baguuuuus!"

5.4.3.2.1

2009-01-01T09:00:00.000-08:00

Happy New Year to all of you!

Spent the eve, and the holiday - WORKING.

Anyway, ahhh, i'll upload the pictures

(which speaks a thousand words) soon aye.

what do you know about a woman's worth shawty?

2008-12-29T08:59:00.000-08:00

And so I'm leaving for good. How much more do I have to hurt myself, intentionally, without realizing it. Creating more wounds, letting it bleed forever. When it hurts so much, and yet apologizes for when there were no mistakes. Let the blame be on me, cause I don't want to hurt you. And it goes on and on, leaving no one to live happily ever after. This game would not come to and end, lest, I, MYSELF, put it to a halt.

Sleepless nights, thinking of nothings, drenched pillows, bee-stung eyes, yada yada yada. What more could you ask for?

I can't say no more. I don't know how to put my feelings into words. If only the tears can speak.

shuddup la Mim!

2008-12-27T09:41:00.000-08:00

Happiest 5th Birthday to my cute Baby Ifah! Cik In loves you many many! Celebrated her birthday at Simpang- with her pyjamas -.-" Cute ain't it? It was 11+++ though.

Yesterday was the usual a 'late-crowd friday'. Started at 5.30pm, but it was busier before i arrived. Mummy did all the orders, and i felt so bad about it. I mean, it makes me feel as if i'm always late for work, when i see her doing the orders, and pissed as well. I appreciate that she helped, BUT, i had to do double the work cause she messes up the place. I cannot see things in disorder or spilt here and there, it totally disgust me. So i told off the boys not to take any orders for desserts until i've reached. BUT NO, they did it again. PFFFFFT. Stocks arrived just now, so, i was checking and stacking the stocks. Considering the hot day, and the heat in the shop, NABEI, i was sweating so much. And little did i realize i stained my new t-shirt with i-don't-know-what-yellow-thingy. It's not oil definitely. And stained more later on with colourings. FUHH, good job Lynn. Upon reaching home, i boiled water, washed up, and soaked my t-shirt with the 100k water + chlorine. Mind you, my t-shirt's WHITE.

And yes, Zameer texted saying he's again at Spize, with his cousins. It's a routine for any of my friends to gimme a call, or text mesages when they are at Simpang. Hahha. As if asking me, "Lynn, are you home?" Yes, for 2 years already, Simpang has became my 2nd home. Well, according to my mom, and Zul, who used to work with me.

Tomorrow, another busy day i supposed. -.-"

Seems that I've been working this whole 2 weeks of holiday.

And yes, to all my Christian friends, MERRY CHRISTMAS!

I exchanged gifts with Molly, and i got 3-in-1 prsents. Awww, i'm so touched! Thanks Molly! And i gave Anil, ok no, SPIZE, a lil Santa, and they displayed it in front of the cashier. Go check it out. Hehhe! Cute!

and so, i'm counting down on (dot dot dot).

TELORRR!

2008-12-22T08:01:00.000-08:00

Spent the blue night with them boyfriends. It's way too hard for us to meet up, especially when they are busy with their not-to-mentions. Wished the rest could join us. Disappointed much with the last minute cancellations.

always forever my numero uno boys

guess who's back?

2008-12-21T10:07:00.000-08:00

Yes people, I am back. Since last Friday. Convoying with Raymond & Co. was fun, because FINALLY, the whole famliy gets together.

Apologies for the late updates, cause I'm way toooo shagged. The day after, I had to work from 3pm, and Sunday too, which was just now. Attended Abg Bob's weddding, got me rushing-like-hell to work. And reached at 4.20 instead of 3pm. Since there was a soccer match- Singapore vs Vietnam, I knew it would be a busy night. And the night worsen when the match ended. The spectators from the Stadium, flooded the whole of Simpang Bedok. Hectic much. Orders were streaming in like forever. Lucky enough i end at 12midnight. Else Wak would be handling the 'tak boleh angkats' number of orders. The shop was noisier than hell. Runners shouting 'PANAS PANASSSS!', sounds worse than punishment in hell.

Wanted to go to the hospital after work, to visit my uncle who is in ICU, and Daddy, Sis and Husband was there as well, but nah, they reached the shop as i was about to go. Since i have not eaten, i ate supper, and i could really feel there was weight hanging on my chin, more dumbbells around my waist. God, i gotta stop this. This very instance.

Saturday, was beloved Abg Faizal's birthday. I think. Cause he told me so, when he was cutting the cake. Or did he just fool me? Spize boys LOVES fooling me, making me look like a cow. Anyways, I don't care whose birthday it was, cause i was fed a big piece of the Haagen Dazs cake. And it kept me calling for more. Aww, you guys know i love cakes. AND I WANT IT FOR MY BIRTHDAY TOO! Speaking of birthday, it's less than a month that the first digit of my age change. Hehhehehhehhhehhe! *kening naik-naik* And here are some shots taken while i was kpo-ing behind the shop.

"Lynn cepat nanti cair."

me: Abg, walaupun rupa Abg Lynn tak kenal,

namun lubang hidongmu

tetap menjadi pujaan hatiku

jeff: kau nak cake ke tak nak ni?

And i'll update the KL trip pictures soon aye!

leaving...

2008-12-14T13:30:00.000-08:00

"and so i'm sailing through the sea, to an island where we'll meet"

day and night

2008-12-13T09:18:00.000-08:00

Apologies for the late updates. It's either I'm too lazy or shagged to. Anyways, just got back from work. Saturdays have always been this way, working my ass out. Many of my friends have told me to get myself another job, since whatever happened there, but i can't. Molly needs me. And i find that Simpang is the most convinient place for me. Guys, i know that you people care, but, slowly aye. I think, it's just me, hallucinating.

And yes, tonight, i saw a few of long-lost people. Ina and co., Fudgey and cuzzie, and.... Shaikh Ahmad and his Arab affliates! ZOMG, Lutfiiiii. His younger brother was effing gorgeous. ZZOMG, Qader went off before i saw them. ass. You still owe me a Samrah-dancing boy, Ahmad. No, not Naufal, but someone like Qader.

Slacked a while with Ina and co. after work, later then with Fudge. Lotsa stuffs to talk about. We NEED TO MEET UP WITH THE REST. SOOOOOON.

Last Tuesday was an impromtu trip to Parkway, Sungei Road and Arab street with them level 3 and 4. Thursday was a heart-thumping-fast moment, when Bam told me that Hussein called to come over to his crib, while we're helping cleaning up the mess. But NOOOO, he did not turn up. Cheat my feelings!

Less than 24hours left before Raymond and co. leaves for Malaysia. Fun fun fun. I hope. Daddy's driving, instead of selit-ing Mama's car. Damn it la. If he goes with Mama, I'll go with Bro, and i will get the chance to drive at the highway. Daddy, always doubt my capability ugh..... You have not seen me drift la Dad. Hahha. I never did anyway.

Errr. Too lengthy i guess.

See ya!

you called me a fuckface?!

2008-12-04T22:55:00.000-08:00

A chilly night at my void deck.

featuring the beloved.

dickhead.cumface.hehhehhe.

ILY.

the-teen (=

2008-12-03T18:20:00.000-08:00

Happy Birthday Syafiq!

My ouh-so-cute-and-pampered nephew turned 13 today.

Please stop your diet and start eating again. You're too skinny already.

Can you guys imagine, he lost weight just by skipping everyday. From a fat-with-triple-chins bubbly boy, now he has lost more than don't-know-how-many-kgs.

I'm so gonna skip everyday. Hehehhe! I went to my brother's crib last night, just to take his skipping rope, cause I lost mine!

Happy Birthday to You, Dear.

Cik In will buy you weight gainer aye!

and it rained, bitch.

2008-12-02T18:12:00.000-08:00

When you miss your beloved baby, you will travel the distance just to have lunch at his workplace. Ili, missed Bam so much, and had MEGA McSpicy, making her more lecak. Hahhahhahhahha! Home wishing me all the luck with Husshuss, which I don't think I need that. Thanks anway Home. But ...hehhehhhehhe. Chilled until 3pm, since we cancelled ArtFriend-ing. And i keep watching Anak Halal again and again. =(

Ikea-ed and Giant-ed, since Ili decided not to tkae her UT. ass.

my favourite toy. ahhhhhhh.

and look at what that bitch made me do.

and i missed him.

and him.

so much.

AND HAPPIEST 19TH BIRTHDAY TO HYDE'S BABY, SYAFIQAH!

god bless you!

wowwww

2008-11-30T09:19:00.000-08:00

A must-watch movie for now. Thumbs up! Watched it last Friday at The Picturehouse with Bali, yes, cabot-ed school, again. Anyways, the story could have been better actually, but it was not disappointing though. I'm not telling you people what's the story about, just go watch it aye.

Yes, have not been updating the blog. Busy and too tired from the school, work and shits. Last two Fridays, spent time with the lovables at Haji Lane smoking hookah. Naaz and Armin joined as well. The rest of our friends are busy with don't-know-whats, not-to-mention, hoes-before-bros, and etc. Bam joined in later. Disappointing, Home wasn't there. Disappointing most, Huss was working. Had supper at Newton, when actually i was not hungry-maybe. But finished all the unwanted/unfinished foods of theirs. Waste money! Lucky enough there was Armin to give us a 'riding dirty', cause i was too shagged to take the train home, or i suppose there wasn't any trains left. hahha!

and I FELL at work last night! EMBARASSING SIA. VERY MUCH! I was sending Ice Jelly with Longan, and since it was busy, i walked briskly, to be quick. And as i stepped down the step in front, ' ZAAAAAAAAAAAAAP'! i fell on my cushy butt, everything dropped. As i fell, the crowd made the 'woooowwww' sound. You know, when you are intensely watching soccer, hoping the ball would enter the goal, and as it was about to enter, the goal keeper manage to catch it. Ah, that 'wooowwwww' sound uh. DAMN. Hilarious much.

Anyway, I ... hmmm. Nothing.

jeng jeng jeng

2008-11-26T20:02:00.001-08:00

Waiting for Ili to send me the pictures of last Friday will take forever. Grrr. Anyways, I just feel that time is passing really fast. Everytime I wake up, I felt as if i just slept for like... an hour? Pfft.

And yes, Toyol bought a new laptop! He has been bragging about it since a few months back, and FINALLY! Hehhe! Spent the night talking crap with him. Webcamming like kids. I just love talking to him, rather than Fitri. It's like talking to the wall ya'll. And tonight, I thought of catching a movie, with Toyol and FuckRul, but thing is that... OUR PAY! It's not in yet. Ray is still on leave, as if he's the one under the pantang. And Molly is delaying my pay till this Sunday (hopefully), because of the unexpected incident last Saturday.

Now, i really feel like going to the Zoo. Please...

minds

2008-11-19T20:00:00.000-08:00

I am managing myself, after the few loses. I am feeling better each and everyday, somehow. Anyways, it has been cold these days. How i wished there's snow in Singapore. Coolshit.

So yea, spent the evening with Ili A.P Raeisa and Bam, bumping each others' car. Hehehe! After so long, BUMPER CAR!!! Proceeded to Century Square, to have more fun. And Polar, to get our free cakes and puffs. All thanks to Bambam!

And last but not least, I want to tell u people of how proud i am of a very special friend of mine. Very special indeed. Special in her own ways. Special person with special personality and needs. She is so special, that i cannot imagine my life without her. Ever since she graduated from Movement for the Intellectually Disabled of Singapore, she has been more special than i could ever thought. I am so proud of her, and i wish her all the best in life. And i will always be there to support her in anyway.

I love you.

Kak Alia's wedding

2008-11-16T19:07:00.000-08:00

I would like to congratulate Kak Alia Shahnaaz & Abg Faizal, upon their blessed wedding yesterday. Looking all beautiful on the wedding dais.

And my BIGGEST bully was there! Surprising much. Came with his ma'am, dressed according to the wedding theme, Black and Purple. Hehehe. When is your turn eh Bobby?

And for more pictures, please visit Ili's blog. I'm just too lazy to upload all. Love ya'll.

GO AWAY

2008-11-10T22:51:00.000-08:00

Isn't it magical, that someone can change your love for someone else in an instant? And at the speed of light, you fell for her. I am just too overwhelmed.

I don't know you. You left. I'll take my leave. I don't want to know you. I don't want to see you. I don't want to hear anything from you. Nothing of you concerns me. Happy? Yes, I am.

Heart-breaker. Just, fuck off. Outta my life, my mind, my heart, my everything. I feel a lot better when i chuck all the 'oh-so-sweet-of-you' stuffs in front of your doorstep. I wished i could scatter them on the flight of stairs and trail it to your crib. I wished I could splash black paint on your muscular body. I wished i could worsen the condition of your room, and in the midst of it, i'll find all the things you swear i'll never mention in this post.

Stop your sweet promises. Stop you mon cherie. I don't need your concern. Don't even ask about my mommy. Just, go away. Don't even live near me. Quick quick, pack your stuffs. Go back to Ting Bahru, nono, Perak, eh no lahhhh... NEW ZEALAND.

EFF YOU SEE KAY WHY OH YOU BEE EH AS TEA EH ARE EE DEE!

hush baby hush

2008-11-09T08:34:00.000-08:00

I know it was a hassle. I know you do not wish to get involved. I know I was being kiddy. But afterall, thank you so much Fendy. Although the outcome was negative, you helped me pull through. Thank you for EVERYTHING. The only one I can count onto there, is you, brother. Thank you thank you thank you thank you.

And to all the people who have been there for me, Ina, Ili, Bali, Azuin, Nini, and not forgetting Toyol and Faizal, thank you so much. You guys have been the greatest ones.

Melancholized. =(

kental

2008-11-05T23:26:00.000-08:00

When we were younger, we were childish, kiddy and immature. Being silly and a noob was nothing surprising. If I were to create a blog in my younger days, I am sure to post absurd stuffs, and when I read it back, I'll laugh my ass out. Ok, can i try now?

Hari ni, aku rase aku peh UT mcm mepek uh sia. Da lah lambat beberape minit kan. Ugh, mampos uh. Anyways, aku da tk kuase dgn si Kelantan tu. Die pn mcm pantat, aku pantat dgn die alik uh. Aku ni, walaupn tk bersalah, aku cube sedaye upaye utk menegakkan keadaan. Tapi die mcm tk pasal jer la sia. Da masok 1 bulan siak aku try nk baik2 dgn die, tapi sial la, same jer. Ok, since kau nk buat taik dgn aku, aku pon dah tk pasal uh uh. Puki betol. Aku nk focus kat diri aku, enjoy maut, and mcm2 uh. Kau pn da tk kisah pe kan. Cheebai uh, aku tk suke siak mcm gini. Palat uh. Banyak org sia da ckp dgn aku, biarkan sua, tapi mcm ner siak aku nk ckp dgn die. Die tknk bual dgn aku sial. Konon workaholic uh. Eh, bleh blah uh sia. Aku respect kau as the supervisor kat sane, tapi kau tk payah uh sampai nk avoid aku gitu mcm kan. Sial lah, bile aku pikirkan seme kan, aku mcm sedih uh. I mean, entah uh, kau kene rase ape yg aku rase to faham. tsk.

Hari ni aku tk nampak eye-candy aku. pfft. sedih. tapi.. ugh, tkpe la. Aku ni pon nk pegi jogging, tk pegi2. Tunggu Ili lambat sia. Die memang suke besarkan pantat die jer, mcm Bujang. Aku tgh on a strict diet jgk. Kene jage pemakanan aku. Tkde lagi nk makan banyak2, goreng2, berminyak2. Nk kene turunkan berat badan uh sia. Aku nak kurus mcm dulu, mase Afif dgn Nas panggil aku chopstick. Tapi tkdela kurus sgt, toned uh. Sekarang, DRUMSTICK siol. khikhikhi.

Harap2, balik ni nampak die uh. pwease, pwease, pwease. Mcm rinduuuuu.

So how was it? It was supposed to be kental(like a friend's old posts), but so much angst i see. Like Minah and Mats. I was partially a Minah when i was younger, believe it or not. So, i think, my posts would be so minah-ish and vulgars used in every sentence. Or the 'full-stop' would be the word 'sial'.

LMAO. the picture tells a lot.

k da bes. end.

2008-11-03T18:12:00.000-08:00

After 2 torturing months, awesome night it was. Dinner at Swensens, after so long. Accompanied with gossips, jokes, laughters, and whatnot. Enjoyable ride home on Baby Glela, troublesome much with my skirt and bag. Oh how I wish we could spend time more often. Tsk. Hyde is Happiness. (=

shaggy

2008-10-31T10:21:00.000-07:00

What a hectic holiday! Enjoyable-NOT! Firstly, failed my FTT-AGAIN, for the third time. Usually the third time should be the charm. Seems that luck wasn't with me huh. Off to Bras Basah and Haji Lane with Ili, got our stuffs and home. Later at night, helped Nini carry her stuffs back to my crib, since she is staying over that night. She wanted me to make her look Vogue-licious for her last day of attachment. And whatnot, helped her wrapping the Halloween chocolates till morning. A few were done at the void deck while we chilled with Ili and Ina. And the bitches were using my laptop hunting Minahs on Friendster. Wrap, wrap, wrap, while chatting with Bali, Han and... my eye-candy. (=

It was till 4, that Nini dozed off, while i had to finish up almost half more of the chocolate. nb teng teng. She woke up at 6. pfft. Told her to wake up earlier, so that she won't be late for work. But ugh, degil nak mampos. I was pissed, but lucky enough, I didn't make her look like any zombie that morning. She was looking all Vogue, and all thanks to ME!

I slept after she left. Woke up, ugh, WORK.

Abg Faizal: Hahhh! Lynn! Hieeee!

Me: Err, hie? (wondering why he sounds so excited)

Abg Faizal: Dah makan ke belom?

Me: *smiles* belom.

Abg Faizal: Nah, amik ni, makan. (he passed me a plate of...)

Me: Huhh?! Betol-betol la bang!

Abg Faizal: Betol! Abg tak main-main la. Makan k.

Me: Serious? *kening naik naik*

Abg Faizal & Toyol: Serious! Makan je.

Me: *grins, took the plate with sparkling eyes* Abg, punch-card.

Abg Faizal: -_-

Hehe! MAGGI GORENG THAI sia. I would never reject that for sure. My all time favourite dish at Spize. The moment I reached work, he gave me my favourite food. Haha! I think they could hear my tummy grumble while I was on the way there. Thanks to my oh-so-sweet Abg Faizal, who has always been there for me, even for food. *kiss kiss*

Next day, same thing. WORK- at 3. I dragged myself, took a cab, and BOOM! The stocks were there. Cleared everything, topped up here and there, putting all the cartons in the store, cooked the beans, blah blah blah. And doing that all ALONE. Wak came in late, i can't even eat dinner. As I was about to sit, the order came out. wtf. And I don't think i have to explain wha I did today. Basically, the same thing. Shagged.

Spent Wednesday night with Toyol and Mukhtar. And I watched Max Payne-again. -_-

He wanted to watch it, so I got no choice, even I've told him the story was confusing. But but but, I was on cloud 9 when i bumped into *insert name*. How miraculous. (=

And whatmore, SCHOOL STARS TOMORROW. AND IT'S MATHS! Can i just drop this module, please?

I can't wait to see him. (=

*kening naik naik*

Good Night!

2008-10-29T09:30:00.000-07:00

I am not sure what is happening to me these days. In a state of confusion, perhaps. I really hate feeling this way. But this is much worse.

I thought LOVE was a beautiful thing. Yes it is. At times, it hurts. The way of life though. But this is endless. Yes, to you, *insert name*, you think there is nothing wrong going on. I am feeling this sh*t. I am in pain, indeed. I have been patient, very patient. Still treating you good, fair, and everything nice. Say all the sweetest things, that I thought would make your night. But nothing came out of it. Was it all worthless?

When I thought of ending this relationship, i feel so bad, i had to cancel it. How easy does one think to break a heart, even in a very polite manner? Ending it sweetly. No. See, i think twice of breaking your heart, but how easy for you to break my my heart um-teen times. You do not wish to speak, how do you expect me to be convinced of your love for me? Baby, we need to talk.

And, I miss this guy so much. Twin brother has been busy lately, with I-don't-know-what. Since he has finally gotten a Baby Glela, pfft, nevermind. I miss his companion, his jokes, his complaints, his gossips, his everything. Oh wells, his deary Aussie chic is coming back to Singapore this November. I'll miss him more. I remembered when he went M.I.A for almost a month 2 years ago. And suddenly called me to buy Lilies for the Aussie chic. SURPRISE SURPRISE! And so, he was busy with her. Hmmm. She's nice though.

Having to lose someone you love the most for others, is totally heart-wrecking. But, I made this sacrifice for my own good. Some things just can't be forced.

So, I am so well prepared to not spend time with him this few months. *sob sob* . I hope they would settle things as soon as possible.

And to THAT GUY, that i just bumped into just now, i wish i could bump into you again and again and again. (=

2008-10-28T23:40:00.000-07:00

As i was about to blog abput the past few days, Toyol called to meet up with him and Mukhtar. BUT, Mukhtar spoilt the whole plan. He wanted to go home and sleep. OKKKK. So yeah, Toyol decided to meet up for dinner later. Weeeeeee.

uh cute la kau Mukhtar.

3 days in a row, we celebrated 3 birthday. Kina's, Uncle Surip and Abg Black. Kina pathetically organised her own birthday. Haha! I teased her the whole day, that she cried. Haha! Sorry Love, we are all too busy working, we have no time to surprise you. But afterall, you surprised yourself didn't you? With our help of course. Haha!

Uncle Surip's birthday was too old for surprises. Not so old, but yea, adult. Abg Black's was the worst sabotaged. We had whip cream, bread crumbs, flour, ice-cream and eggs. No pictures were taken, because all of us were too engross sabotaging him. Haha! For 2 days, we had to clean the floor in front of 7-eleven. I washed on Kina's birthday, although i was not involved in the mess. Black's birthday, Abg Mizan had to do it. Haha! Sorry!

And *insert name*, I wish we could just sit down and talk. About us.

bye.

2008-10-28T22:58:00.000-07:00

Toyol just called. ok i want to go out. ok bye!

2008-10-24T23:01:00.000-07:00

I believe that today will be a very busy day at work.

Since Raya is coming to an end, Spize, or shall I say, the whole of Simpang Bedok will be crowded as per normal. ASS.

And good gracious, holidays have started, but only for a week.

Nothing to be so enthusiastic about anyway. I have skipped classes for numerous of times.

But I do still need a break.

Ughhhh.

Saturdays = Working

FCUKITY SHIT

HALLOWCREEEAM!

2008-10-22T23:37:00.000-07:00

Here are some glimpse of the Hallowscreeeam party in RP.

So are you screeeaming for more?

Love is a Losing Game

2008-10-21T21:06:00.000-07:00

Why do I wish never played

Oh, what a mess we made

And now the final flame

Love is a losing game

I teared when i read Ili's blog. These days, I've been thinking about him. No calls, no messages. Nothing.

I love you so.

Level 2,3,4

2008-10-15T07:07:00.000-07:00

Finally, Ina sacrificed her time to spend the day with us at Wild Wild Wet. Although I've been there a couple of times, and whatnot, worked there before, it was bitchy-licious fun, especially with them. They make my world go round. Unfortunately, Yazid was not on duty today. Pfft. DJ was, and he looked fairer than the last time i saw him.

I tried to free myself from all the problems entangled all in my head. I can't. Somehow, I feel so bad, so sad, i just don't know.

After the tiring day, we decided to slack at the void deck. Ina went up to take her exam papers to mark. Teachers have no life. Fortunately, she does not need to do as much as others have to. And as usual, we bitch, cam-whored, bla bla bla. Afterall, we had a great day together. Thanks to Bambi's Bitch and Ina Naaaaaaz, for the advices ya'll gave. We'll see how aite. I love *insert name*. Let me consider it aye.

Do not mind that bitch, she loves to do that.

ina marking her stupid P1 students' exam papers

shagged early bird

2008-10-12T17:59:00.000-07:00

8.27a.m. Impressive. I was early for school today, cause I think I took 168. Hahh. Should make it a habit to be early for school. My grades are already FUGLY plus the -0.5. wtf.

i'm totally shagged. totally.

Friday to Sunday yo.
Helped Daddy at Simpang, until 1+++, and tucked in right after i reached home. I was afraid i can't wake up the next morning for my make-up sessions with Nyah. Lucky enough Mummy woke me up, and i took a cab to Nyah's crib. I had my make-up all done there though. After brunch, we head to Pasir Ris, to make up Lina for her engagement. I am so happy for people who are getting tied, you see. Engaged, married, life is so beautiful after marriage. I wonder how couples can make it for a long distace relationship. Lina is studying at Australia, and her bf is here in SHATEC. Coolness. So yeah, sacrifices baby.

Being a make-up artist's assistant is so-goddammit fun. When Lina took out all the bridal accessories, I could feel my eyeballs popped out. Weeee. Coolshit stuffs, I might say. And one of my favourite was the biggest, heaviest earring i have ever hung on my ears. I LOVE it so MUCH!

After we're done with Lina, we head down to Orchad Hotel to make up 20 pathetic imbeciles, whom i think have not have make-up on their faces before. For God's sake, puhlease. We know what we are doing, we are making ya'll look beauiful - for at least that night. 3 freaking hours spent on those slow bitches. They took their own effing sweet time, and gosh, pissing me off. The men were much better. The ladies were... ugh!

Had to rush to Spize after that. Not that crowded afterall. I guess, people are still busy raya-ing. *insert name* was in-charge at the back. hehe. happy nyeee. But no, still not in talking terms. EFF YOU SEE KAY. He smiled, i smiled back. I talked, he ugh. Didn't listen. I slept straight away after work. Too shagged ya'll. Woke up the next day at... it was late. Headed to work, and ugh, what a hot day. *insert name* smiled. But later on, we argue again. No, me. I was already pissed, but he acts as if nothing happened. wtf. As usual, the night was rather quiet. Smoke and talk all night long. Freak, i have to quit smoking, i really do. After work, I sat with my beloved brothers, Affendy, Toyol, & Abg Amie. Not forgetting the spicy 'Nasi Goreng Kampong', you guys should try it. Bro Fendy advised me on certain issues, he opened up my mind. Shared his experiences with "lorong" SLUTS, and all. Hilarious much. Abg Amie is so fatherly cute, and Toyol, never fail to piss me off. *insert name* he is always busy to even notice me.

By the way, here are a few pics. Some pictures at Lina's place are still with Nyah.

OMGIF!

2008-10-10T01:31:00.000-07:00

School ended. Waiting for Ili to finish her UT. I thought of leaving school after second meeting, but no, I didn't. I pity my two other team mates, so yeah, i stayed throughout.

It is so not my day today. Sucks aye. Lucky enough, I do not need to reprt for work tonight. I wouldn't be able to face *insert name*. Abang Faizal has triggered my curiousity, and it's killing me. I have filled 7 urns of a virgin's tears honey. Tsk. I guess he was too shagged to text me this morning, as he promised. Pfft. Nevermind. Patience Lynn, patience.

And yes. Hyder is FINALLY getting his personal transportation. A Gilera. I am so happy for him. After months attaining his licence, he is finally getting his 'wife', with his own money. I knew you could make it, dear. And please, I hope you remember to spend your cash wisely and on those who deserves it. (=

Tomorrow will be a loooooong day for me. But i am in a state of dilemma now. Pfft. Tsk.

i miss *insert name*

beginnerrrrr

2008-10-07T20:09:00.000-07:00

B.OR.E.D.O.M

i guess this is the reason why i create this ugh, blogging thingy.

EFF YOU SEE KAY...

and i am not feeling so good today.
but, my team mates are so yipee yipee yayy yayy.
i feel a little bit better.
no.wait. still a lil bit of shitty.

i'll get back later aye.
worksheet is calling for me.